If you are feeling anxious the night before your surgery, THAT IS TOTALLY normal.

The night before my surgery was when I was the most nervous and honestly was questioning everything.

I remember feeling like, am I really ready? Am I making the biggest mistake of my life?!

I double checked my hospital bag a million times. I knew the only way to calm my nerves was to be distracted.

I was thankful that my family and some friends took me out to a big dinner and we just laughed and talked and acted like the surgery wasn’t looming right around the corner. It made me feel “normal” still.

We barely brought up the surgery and I barely thought about it which was really helpful.

But when I got home that night reality sunk it and it hit me like a ton of bricks.

I remember turning on a hot shower and just balling my eyes out.  I was so scared and I felt so alone even though I had a supportive partner at the time and my family had flown in from out of town to be there to help care for me.

The Breasties didn’t exist yet so I didn’t have anyone that “got it” to talk to. I felt like the only young person in the world going through this. Little did I know there was an entire community out there waiting for me…

If you are reading this and you are feeling alone and afraid, this is totally normal. We would be out of our minds not to be scared. This is a huge life changing decision.

I made sure to put on my air-diffuser with lavender because that always calms me. 

And I repeated my mantra over and over in my head. 

Please know though that you can do this. You are doing everything right for you and your body and your future.

And you are not alone.

I love you and I am here for you, cheering you on every step of the way!